I am mad. Spit-hateful-words-in-your-face mad!
Truly, the action that pushed my buttons and created this reaction is not worthy of this strong anger, but there it is nonetheless. In the grand scheme of things this was a minor attack, but my ego is screaming for some accountability from the person who slighted me.
I know that the actions of this person speaks to their own insecurities not mine but, in their efforts to cover their own behind, I was degraded and that is not okay. I also know that my anger only hurts me – bringing more anger back at me thanks to the law of attraction. Crap! I definitely don’t want more of this feeling!
On the other hand, shoving my anger down also does not serve me, so what should I do? I would like to express my anger in a meaningful way and once it is spent, I would like it to leave my consciousness, my cells, me.
So, I am writing a blog post and these words will be but a reminder of the anger that possessed me today. I feel better already. I should have thought about this sooner instead of ruminating in my anger. Wasted energy to be sure. And I know better to let myself get sucked into this vortex.
Alas, I have to admit that I am human – albeit an angry human capable of feeling a whole range of emotions – some positive and others, embarrassingly negative.
The upside of this is that I luckily did not act out of anger, although I tell you, I was tempted! The satisfaction would have been temporary and I would have hurt someone in the process.
Tomorrow, I will be able to deal with the situation from a place of compassion for the other person’s insecurities. I will state my objections with integrity instead of anger. I like that place much better.
For now, I will surrender to this anger and let it move through me, hopefully while keeping my words to myself. Breathe in. Breathe out. Perhaps, there is a lesson for me wrapped inside this cloak of anger. Stepping outside of my anger will allow me to receive the gift. Easier said than done today.